So, 2020. Yeah. How’s that going for you?
Personally, life has been a doozy (well, definitely doozier, as I feel like I’ve been in constant state of doozy for years) since the beginning of December. Life has been showing me its cycles, and I’ve been showing Life that I can survive this roller coaster I’m on. For every pit of despair there is amazing joy and beauty to offset it. Thankfully I’m a Scorpio and truly appreciate all of these ups and downs. It’s how I know I’m alive.
I feel like a lot of people are experiencing similar ups and downs, especially those who are sensitive and empathetic. If our own lives aren’t throwing us curveballs, we’re getting them from the world around us. There’s a lot going on right now.
The New Moon in Capricorn and solar eclipse on Dec. 25 was a very auspicious day, especially with the Moon conjunct Jupiter. This was the day where we made wishes for our lives to come, knowing that better fortune was right around the corner. The world was our oyster, and not in a gross shellfish way.
This Full Moon may feel like the opposite. The Moon is ruled by Cancer and is opposite the Sun, Mercury, Saturn, and Pluto. Cancer is moody, broody, and gooey on the inside, hence its protective shell. Saturn and Pluto are close to being conjunct and these two energies together can feel harsh and intimidating. The eclipse magnifies these feelings. So if you are wondering where feelings of vulnerability are coming from, look no further.
We see a Full Moon when the Moon and Sun are on opposite sides of the sky and the light of the Sun is able to fully illuminate the part of the Moon we can see from Earth. You can think of this as your subconscious/emotions/needs (the Moon) being lit up by your ego/wants (the Sun). The heart needs what the heart needs, and sometimes that can feel very uncomfortable when our ego peers into our heart from the across the room. These uncomfortable feelings are the basis for tomorrow’s work with the Cancer Full Moon.
Take some time to see what it is your heart truly needs and wants. Listen to all that comes up, especially if it’s uncomfortable. Write down everything that comes to mind.
Next, write down how you hold yourself back from these desires. What fears do you have? What beliefs are stuck in your head? What knowledge don’t you have that could help you?
For each thing that holds you back, write down at least one thing that can propel you forward. How have you overcome this fear, or anything similar, in the past? What false beliefs have you successfully let go of? Where could you go to figure out how to do the things to need to do?
Next, create an action plan, a list of baby steps, or a doodle of ideas that can help you get to where you want to be. Write down resources where you can find help and all the people who could be a support system to help you move forward. Reach out to at least one of those people and tell them what you are doing.
Finally, write a journal entry that takes place in the future after these desires have manifested. Put yourself in the scene. What do you feel, taste, see, smell, and hear? What sensations are in your body knowing that these amazing things have happened? Do this every day for as many days as it feels authentic to your desires.
The Saturn Pluto conjunction on Sun. Jan. 12 will test our resolve we created under Friday’s Full Moon. This the time where we stand full in who we want to be. Dress for the job you want. Fake it until you make it. Find out who you are and do it on purpose (thank you, Dolly Parton!). Look at your life in front of you and make a list of what needs fixing. Then start doing the work where you can.
It’s a tough path ahead, but you can do it. I’ll be right there, too!