Hello! It’s been a little while.
It’s taken me a few months to remember who I am and what I’m even doing here. In my last post, I was exploring what it means to be calm, and discovering what that even feels like. Then a month went by and the world exploded again, and sense of calmness was tossed into upheaval once again. Because I thrive more in chaos than stillness, I rode that wave and involved myself in any way that I could. But then I crashed, and crashed hard.
I was forced to find the calmness. I was being told that this is the lesson I need to learn, and I needed to pay attention. Once I found that calm again, I was able to have a clearer picture of what was and was not working for me. I’ve cut out what wasn’t working as much as possible and doubled down on things that do work. Things are looking much more differently than I expected, but that’s okay. I’m getting through the pandemic and all the social unrest the best I can.
This does not mean that I haven’t been doing my work, however. I’ve noticed that many people bury their head in the sand when they want to take a break because feeling uncomfortable is too, well, uncomfortable. Maybe the discomfort of growth is my baseline feeling of the chaos I need to survive and that’s why I’m always learning. Maybe it’s just my nature to keep improving so I can be the best version of myself possible. I honestly don’t think it really matters why, but I do think it’s important for everyone to always be working on becoming the best versions of themselves.
I share all this because the reason I started this blog was because I created something for myself to continue growing, and thought that sharing it with others might offer some insight for anyone else who might be exploring themselves and how they relate to the world. The first Book of My Shadows I wrote for myself to help myself. Then I was told that it could be helpful for others, and I shared it. When I find myself straying from that, I find myself not enjoying writing or even exploring the things that I typically enjoy to write about and explore. So I’m reeling myself in sharing what works for me and sharing it, not because I think my way is the best way, but is just one way for others to try on and keep or toss aside as needed.
Doing something amazing, or helpful, or amazingly helpful for ourselves is totally Leo energy. Many of us put the needs of others before our own, or don’t feel right doing something for ourselves that we would do for other people. How many times do we encourage the ones we love but discourage ourselves in the next breath? This new moon I would like anyone who feels that to flip it around and encourage yourself to do something for yourself first. And if it is something that can help others after you have full helped yourself, then share it.
Tomorrow’s Leo new moon has some challenging aspects to it, so keep flexibility and fluidity in mind as you consider some of the following prompts:
- Something I have been wanting to do for myself (make a list if there are multiple!):
- What are the steps I need to take to actually do thing for myself?
- What blockers exist and what can I do to work around them?
- Something I can do today to love myself:
- Something I can create today:
Take some time for yourself and see what you can create. Leo is creative and playful energy, so find something that is fun for you make and express yourself. Then share it with others!
One thing that I’ll be working on creating for myself is Book of Shadows for 2021. I’m really missing it reading the prompts and doing the work every full and new moon. So I’ll be creating that for myself for next year, and sharing it with you as well! I’ll keep you updated!
