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Scorpio New Moon 2020 – Transformation is certain, it’s easier when you’re on board; NEW book for 2021!!

Hello Dear Ones, it’s been quite the year hasn’t it? I hope you and those you care about are doing as best as you can during this time.

This year definitely hasn’t been an easy one for me, but I’m getting through it. I have a new job, new place to live, new fuzzy roommates, and new anxieties on top of all the other ones. The last few months have really been a recalibration for me, understanding what it is that I really need, understanding my energy levels, prioritizing my actions, and being really okay if I can’t get through everything. Some days I have more energy than others and on those days I try to get ahead a little bit and set things up so Future Me has an easier day.

Book of My Shadows for 2021 — coming soon!!

One thing I wish I had this year was a Book of My Shadows for 2020. I didn’t write one last year because, well, it was a hard year, too, in very different ways. I could have used it this year as one way to ground and orient myself while I do my work. I’m happy to report that I’m feeling more like myself, taking the time that I need, and have felt inspired to write. I’m just about done with Book of My Shadows for 2021 and I expect to ship physical copies the first week of December! You can preorder your copy today in my store or by clicking here.

Ride that wave

What transformations have you had this year? This year I’ve learned to ease expectations. I’ve always kept my expectations low in general, in part to prevent disappointment, another part to let go of control, but this year really has just been riding the wave and seeing where I end up. I’ve also shifted my perspective from being an unwilling passenger on the wave towards oblivion to being the captain of the ship. I’m still going wherever this wave is taking me but choosing to have a say in how I react and respond. I’m choosing to find things to be grateful for every day and allowing myself to feel personal joy at the same time I feel collective anxiety and sorrow.

How are you celebrating your transformations? Take some time today to celebrate yourself in some way!

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Sagittarius New Moon 2019 — Aiming for what we want to become

Holy crow, where has the time gone? We are almost at the end of 2019! How does this make you feel? I’m been feeling pretty excited recently, even if I can foresee some undesired changes ahead in the next year. I feel like I’m really starting to come into who I’ve always wanted to be over the last 11 months or so. I’ve had some trials and tribulations that have sparked a lot of perspective shifts and growth, and I can’t wait to take everything I have done for myself and move into the next year. I’m excited to see what I make of all this!

Take an honest look back through your year and note what significant changes have happened for you. What areas have you experienced the most growth? What goals have you accomplished? Where do you feel you have fallen short?

Tuesday’s New Moon in Sagittarius will be a great time to start taking our next steps in who we are becoming. Sagittarius is the sign of dreams, learning, long journeys, optimism, resilience, movement, and mind expansion (to name a few). It is ruled by Jupiter, the planet of growth, expansion, prosperity, and good fortune. These influences make it a great time to ask, “what is the best version of myself that I can become?”

The best version of yourself is not the version that comes from society. It is not worried about what others think in the realms of capitalism. It’s not about your status. It is not about living up to a bullshit standard of beauty that’s impossible to obtain or sustain. It is about understanding where you have come from, what you are capable of, what resistance you face from others and within yourself, and what would help you live a life that is aligned to your ideals and your values as opposed to those society deems appropriate (and if your ideals and values align to society in a way that makes your heart sing, awesome!).

What dreams do you have for yourself? Who would you become if you had the freedom to be however you wanted? What are some things you can do to become this person?

I’ve recently tried to do something that I had always dreamed about. And it was fun, until it wasn’t anymore. I was afraid of trying out my dream because I was afraid of failing at it. But after doing the work, and it was a lot of work, I realized that the dream that I had was actually something quite different than I thought it was. I realized there was something about the idea that I loved and not the kind of work that was needed to manifest that specific idea. Which is great because now I know! And I wouldn’t have figured it out if I didn’t give it a go.

It’s okay to change. Our minds, our thinking, our lives, anything. And it’s definitely okay to change after you’ve learned something new that shifts how the world works for you. Are there shifts in your life that you have been wanting to make? This is definitely the time to do so!

Take some time to think about the shifts you are wanting to make in your life by making a list. Then answer the following prompts in your journal:

  1. What fears do I have about becoming the person who I want to be?
  2. Where do these fears come from?
  3. What are some ways that these fears are unfounded?
  4. What are aspects of my life that feel in opposition with whom I want to become?
  5. Are there any ways that I can lessen this opposition?
  6. What are some actions I can take this week to put my dreams into motion?

Finally, spend some time future writing as the person whom you want to become. What is their life like? What do they do all day? Where do they go? How do they deal with tricky situations? How do they feel when doing this? What goes through their mind? How do they react? Be as detailed as possible! Journaling this way helps wire the synopses in our brain and can help build a foundation for the rest of our psyche to move into to become what we’ve always desired to be.

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Scorpio New Moon 2019 – Initiation

I’m sure it comes as no surprise to those who know me that I’m in love with the Scorpio New Moon. Even though my own Moon sign is in Virgo, it’s in my 8th house, which is the house ruled by Scorpio. I have, indeed, been called too passionate, too intense, too much, and I’m finally at a point in my life where I’m like, “Fuck yeah I am!” If I can’t put my blood, sweat, and tears into something I generally don’t believe it’s worth doing (though I do know that there are lots of things worth doing that don’t require every drop of my soul, but I digress).

I’ve been through a lot this year. Past few years. This lifetime. Probably the last few lifetimes. You probably have, too. This New Moon let’s take a look at all the progress that we’ve made and step into this next phase like an enraged Scorpio who just set fire to their ex lover’s car. I generally dislike using these negative tropes because I feel like we Scorpios get a really bad rap, but the feeling I’m looking to embody is one of knowing that, while we’re not perfect, we can totally own our flaws AND all the badassery that is in every single one of our cells at the same damn time.

Scorpio is the sign that rules initiations. While we typically think of an initiation has a ceremony that has to take place to join some sort of secret society, the word really just means “the action of beginning something.” What if you took time to make your own initiation ritual? You don’t have to experience something monumental to go through an initiation. Besides, isn’t purposefully stepping into your daily life owning all of your badassery monumental? There are 3 parts to a basic initiation:

  1. Acknowledging who you have been
  2. Acknowledging who you are now
  3. Setting an intention for who you are becoming

What is something you can do for your initiation? You can do this while making your morning coffee, taking your daily bath or shower, walking your dog. Anything can become an initiation if you put the intention into it!

You were yesterday made you who you are today. Step into who you’ll be tomorrow with full confidence that you are exactly where you are supposed to be.

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Libra New Moon 2019 – Starting a new relationship with yourself

As I was having dinner with a great friend last night, the conversation turned to relationships, as it always does. Along with verbally processing annoyances we experience in our romantic relationships (or lack thereof), we always seem to gravitate to explore why our relationships of any kind exist in the first place. My friend shared that, on her grandmother’s deathbed, her final wish bestowed to her mother was to “find a husband who will take care of you.” Not, “find someone you love who loves you just as much,” or “follow your dreams,” but, “You probably can’t take care of yourself, so make it someone else’s job to do it.” This is all implied, of course, as I wasn’t there, and I do not have a lot of additional context. But this does align with a lot of the expectations society has placed on women and exemplifies the chains that many people who are femme presenting are trying to break free from today.

There’s so much pressure to be in a relationship.

There’s this feeling that something is wrong with you if you can’t find someone who wants to commit to you. People who care for you will tell you that they “just want you to be happy” without any thought that maybe you could be really happy on your own. I know so many people (myself included) who have jumped into relationships because it felt like that was what they were supposed to be doing at the juncture in their life and not because they found a person who truly made their heart sing.

Interestingly, there isn’t much pressure to be in good relationship with one’s own self.

We conflate self-care with selfishness. We’re told to put others first at the expense of our own needs. A lot of the time we don’t even know what our own needs even are! And even on flipside of the equation, we are told to love ourselves unconditionally without being able to fully accept who and what we are.

*deep breath*

What if we could hit the reset button and have a start fresh? While it can be difficult to do that in a relationship with another person, it’s far less challenging to do it with ourselves because we don’t need to coordinate anything with anyone else. Today’s Libra New Moon provides the opportunity to do just that!

Set a new pace

Why is it that many of us feel like we need to change ourselves over night? Monday morning (/the first of the month/the New Year/etc.), seems to be this magic day where we will wake up this brand-new person, ready to tackle new habits and a new life. Our alarm will go off and instead of hitting snooze 10 times, we’ll emerge from the cocoon of our bed sheets a full and beautiful butterfly ready to flutter and fly.

The reality is that we are not digesting our body from the inside out and physically building a new existence like a pupa does inside a chrysalis – we are actually the same person we were Sunday night with our hopes and dreams for a smoother Monday morning as we are on that Monday morning when we get mad at ourselves for not being able to form a new habit and hit snooze 11 times (an extra time for good measure – I am definitely talking about myself here!).

What if we approached the changes we wanted to make in our life in a slow and deliberate way that was forgiving?

Setting the pace in a new relationship means not falling head over heels and taking things at a pace that allows time to make observations and reflect on what is observed. As a person who loves intensity in nearly any situation, this seems super challenging for me. But being able to take a step back and observe our own self can help us see why the things we want to do are hard for us to actually accomplish.

For example, after observing what I was feeling for many, many mornings over the course of a year, I realized that that my need to snooze was brought on by many factors like not being happy at work, feeling anxiety about my morning commute, feeling pressure from myself to get in early morning exercise, and being unable to establish or keep other morning routines. Oh, and not actually getting enough sleep. So instead of forcing myself into the person that I felt I wanted to be, I instead tried to take some of the pressure off myself one pressure at a time. I have a new job that I’m loving so far, and I’ve changed my schedule so I can go into work early and exercise in the evening.

I let go of the attachment I had to what my life should look like and have experimented to find what really works for me. It’s not the perfect life I imagined, but I’m realizing that those expectations were impossible to meet, and I’m doing the best that I can. It’s not perfect, and neither am I, but I’m definitely creating a world for myself where I can start to thrive.

Being in relationship with yourself does not mean you need to love everything about yourself.

My amazing friend Tiana Dodson turned me onto the fact that I don’t need to love all parts of my body, I just need to be in relationship with those parts. The body positivity movement, while its intentions are rooted in goodness, has told us to love our bodies no matter what. The truth is that many of us have bodies that can betray us, or have been betrayed, or feel betraying. There are just some parts of ourselves we truly cannot love unconditionally.

We have one body while we are on this planet and I would like to tell you that you do not need to love every single part of it, but you do need to learn how to accept it for what it is and learn how to be in relationship with it.

Think of all the relationships you have with other people. Do you love each of your coworkers unconditionally? I don’t! I don’t have to, either. But I know how to maintain the relationships I have with them so we can each accomplish the goals that we have to the best of our abilities. I think we need to have a similar relationship with our bodies.

What if, instead of feeling like we needed to change everything about ourselves that we don’t like, we were able to take a step back and address what we really need?

I have amblyopia in my right eye which means I have nothing but peripheral vision in that eye. Growing up with it I’ve learned to adapt my life in a way that feels completely natural for me. I am in relationship with it because I just know there are certain things that are difficult or impossible for me to do without being able to use both eyes effectively. I might try a new eye therapy if one seems to work for adults with this condition, but I’ve accepted that there isn’t much I can really do. The relationship with amblyopia is an easy one for me to maintain because it’s always been like this for me and there’s not much change that can happen.

However, I’m beginning a new chapter in my relationship with my eyesight. Because I effectively have only one good eye to do all the work of two, my left eye is getting tired faster as I age. I seriously thought I was slowly going blind, even after my eye doctor tried to assure me that everything was healthy and I was just getting older. It wasn’t until I was having dinner with another friend who pulled out a bad-ass pair of reading glasses and let me try them on that I realized that I actually wasn’t going blind, my eyes are just getting weaker. Sure, I can have 20/20 vision, but that doesn’t mean I can still see as perfectly as I was once able to. I cannot say that I love this part of myself. One of my identities is being a photographer, and one hallmark of a great photograph is having crisp, clear images, which is much more difficult if your vision is off.

I have two choices

I can live in denial that I’m getting older and my body is slowly starting to die (at least I’m not digesting myself from the inside out?). Or I can support my new needs by making the text on my phone and computers bigger and investing in multiple pairs of reading glasses that I can leave at home and work for those moments when I actually want to be able to see something clearly. But I do not need to love that my eyesight is deteriorating.

This weekend take some time to explore the relationship you want to have with yourself. How can you take things slow and steady? What are the parts of yourself where you would like to have a better relationship? What needs do you have that you aren’t meeting and how can you meet those needs?

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New Moon in Leo 2019 — Your undoing is you becoming

It seems that just about everyone is going through some sort of personal crisis right about now. Those of us who are in tune with the rhythms of the Universe seem to be having a slightly better time at it because we understand the ebbs and flows of the chaos that churns ethereal clouds of our world, but that doesn’t make anything we are going through any easier. In fact, it might make it a little more difficult because we know there’s a reason for all of this, and we know that it’s our duty to experience each rip and tear to our heart and soul to keep shedding, growing, and becoming who we are meant to be.

Enter the Leo New Moon. She will pounce on us tomorrow evening as a powerful New Moon that intends playfulness and courage. After the Cancer/Capricorn eclipse portal that was opened and closed with the first New Moon and the Full Moon of July, and the Lions Gate opening on July 26, we are in a tender moment of shedding what no longer serves us, preparing for the next step of our transformation. Basically, we all feel like a pulverized caterpillar trying to put itself back together into something it knows it’s supposed to be but hasn’t ever been. It’s disorienting and uncertain, but that instinct to become is there, and if we can just trust it, we’ll eventually emerge into a new sense of freedom.

However, becoming something “new” doesn’t mean we come in with a clean slate. We are bringing all of our trials, tribulations, and lessons we have learned. We also have custody of our inner children, which Leo is ready to be befriend and play with. The New Moon is a great time to explore what these parts of ourselves need from us to make the transition easier and to live fully as the kick-ass butterflies that we will be.

Take some time to meditate on your life when you were a toddler and preschooler, and when you were in elementary, middle, and high school. What are some key moments for each phase that you experienced? What were your emotions at the time? What did you think and feel about yourself, your family and friends, and the world around you? These questions can’t be answered for all ages, of course, but use what knowledge you have and do your best.

Finally, ask each of your inner children what they need. Can they tell you? If not, can you remember when you were them and feel out what you needed at that time? When you think you have these things, see which of these needs you can meet and see if there’s a way to figure out how to meet the needs of those that you feel you can’t right now.

It is also important to take some time to honor who you once were. This person helped you survive thus far in life, and through all the mistakes and successes, deserves to be recognized. The butterfly can’t bring its caterpillar self into their new life, it must be sacrificed and let go to move on.

Peridot and Neroli

From Crystal Vaults: Peridot is an extraordinary crystal for healing the emotional body and resolving matters of the heart. It cleanses and heals hurt feelings and “bruised egos,” lessening anger, jealousy, resentment and spite, while teaching one to understand that holding onto people, or the past, is counterproductive to one’s growth. It teaches one to examine the past for the gift of the experiences, admit mistakes and let go of guilt and blame, forgiving oneself, or others, in order to move forward.

Peridot stimulates psychological clarity and inspires a sense of happiness and contentedness in one’s life. It empowers one to detach the mind from outside influences and have confidence in one’s own abilities, looking inward for guidance and accessing the wisdom of the higher mind. It initiates independence and assertion without aggression, accepting the world as it is, then transforming it with clear intention to create the reality one wishes to have.

From Miracle Botanicals: Neroli itself is pure spirit, representing the purity in all things. It is always loving and peaceful. Neroli essential oil brings light into any day, but is especially useful whenever mistrust has overtaken reason, or during dark periods of deep depression.

Neroli essential oil has another purpose to bring self-recognition and relief. [Out] pain and sorrow is sometimes brought about because we have not seen how we might have affected our relations with the others in perception. Neroli allows the reflection that can throw light on the wounds that tie us to old patterns of relating. As truth is revealed, the self emerges into wholeness and all encompassing love, stirring the spirit in ways that can be both unexpected and liberating. Then, the spirit can really soar.

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New Moon in Cancer 2019 — Connecting and Releasing

The New Moon in Cancer happens just after Mars enters Leo. There will also be a total solar eclipse during this time which will only be visible in parts of South America. This is great energy for connecting with your heart and ensuring it connects with your home. If you find a disconnect, use that extra boost of Leo in Mars energy to find a creative solution.

Take some time to think about your home. Does it feel like a home? Are you connected to your loved ones? If you feel disconnected, how can you reconnect? Do you want to reconnect? Sit with any feelings that arise and know that these feelings are just information and not problems that need to fixed right away unless you feel genuine inspiration to do so.

Connect with water today in anyway that you can. Whether it’s soaking in a bath, going for a swim, drinking more than your fair share of water, or sitting by a river, being in or near water will help you connect to the Cancerian energy of this New Moon to explore the feelings that might be ready to surface. What feelings have you been burying, that you have decided to “deal with” at another time? Watch a movie, listen to music, or journal to bring these feelings to the surface so they can be acknowledged and felt in a safe place today. It’s okay to cry it out!

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Taurus New Moon 2019 – Connecting to our intuition

“I can’t believe I listened to my intuition, and it was right!”

This is a sentence from my travel journal that I reread the other week. It made my heart hurt. I had started the journal because I wanted to document my first European backpacking trip, and the first entry was an impromptu visit to Philadelphia due to bad weather and flight cancelations. My flight had been canceled until the next evening, giving me the opportunity to explore Philadelphia and grab a cheesesteak. After a miserable attempt at sleeping in the airport, I set out at around 6 a.m. to explore the city until I needed to be back at the airport later that day. I have a lot of ancestry in Philadelphia, I’m descendant from a signer of the Declaration of Independence, and this history was something that was important to my grandmother and I felt I needed to explore it since I had the opportunity. The problem that I faced was, I hadn’t planned this excursion out. This was a couple years before the days of being able to whip out a phone and find something to do. It was 2005 and I didn’t even bring my cell phone with me because it wouldn’t even work in Europe. And because it was very early in the morning, there wasn’t anyone at information desks, so there wasn’t anyone who seemed friendly enough to ask, so I decided to just hop on the train, take it somewhere, and hope for the best.

I had no idea which stop to get off on. Looking at the rail line map, I picked the Market East Station to get off at (it’s now called Jefferson Station) because, “well, I like markets…” It felt right and I had time to kill, so that’s where I got off. And it was exactly where I was trying to go. It was close to the Liberty Bell, Independence Hall, and a few other sites I had wanted to see. And I couldn’t believe that I knew how to get there.

Part of me still can’t believe it. But nearly 14 years have passed, and knowing what I know now, the other part of me isn’t surprised at all. I can feel my ancestors and I know they were helping me find where I wanted to go. I have very strong intuition, but I haven’t been able to trust it until the last few years of my life. In 2005 I didn’t have the connection to my body that I have now. I wasn’t able to listen to the sensations I had to help navigate my life. I didn’t even know these signals were ones that were trying to help me, I had always thought that there were parts of me that were trying to sabotage my life and what I had thought I was “supposed” to do. I mistrusted my intuition, and only gave into it this day because I had nothing else to do.

Our intuition is a powerful source we should listen to more. Intuition is frequently gendered (women’s intuition) when anyone can develop it for themselves. It just takes the ability to reflect on one’s self and be aware of one’s own emotions and body sensations. Our bodies can know what is right or wrong before our minds do. The Iowa Gambling Task demonstrates this through a study where participants were given instructions to go select one out of four decks of cards to go through. Each card would either reward or penalize the participant with (fake) money. Players were instructed to select cards one at a time and try to lose the least amount of money and win the most. Two decks were stacked with more penalizing cards and the other two decks with more rewarding cards. Participants were hooked up to sensors on their skin that measured their stress levels. The researchers found that participants’ stress levels in their bodies reflected increased amounts of stress when they flipped cards in the decks with more punitive cards at about 10 cards in, when many of these participants didn’t make a conscious decision to try another deck until they were about 50 cards in.

Being able to listen to our intuition is important for many reasons. It’s additional information that can help us make important decisions. Have you ever felt like you knew you shouldn’t have done something, but couldn’t explain why, and then wished you had listened to that inkling afterwards? That’s intuition. Or intuition can also keep us physically safe and help us improve our health when we listen to it.

What does this have to do with the Taurus New Moon? Taurus is all about comfort and stability, which can grow into stubbornness and controlling natures. This is a good day for being grounded, which is the first step to take when you want to strengthen your intuition. What are some ways you can connect with your body today? What is a way you can tap into your intuition instead of brain?

If you do nothing else today, see if you can determine what a “yes” and a “no” feels like in your body. Find something that has a lot of different options for your to choose from, such as Netflix or an art book. Plant your feet firmly on the floor, take as many deep breaths as it takes for the chatter in your head to subside enough to check in with your body. Mentally scan your body from your feet, feeling them on the floor, all the way up your body to the top of your head, taking note of any sensations you feel along the way like stiff muscles or an anxious stomach. Then, flip through your set of options one at a time and do another body scan as you look at your option. What differences do you feel in your body? Take note of where you are feeling these sensations and which stimuli you were reacting to. After you do a bunch (try to do at least 10), see what patterns you can see. Did you feel the options on Netflix that excite you in one place and the options that didn’t excite you somewhere else? Note where these places are. Then find something else that you know is a “yes” and a “no” and see if these places in your body are triggered by those. This might not work the same way 100% of the time, but it’s the first step to learning how all of this works in your body and begin to trust it.

Lapis Lazuli and Uva Ursi are our allies for today. Not only are they fun to say together, but they can help in connecting to our intuition. Lapis Lazuli will help encourage self-awareness and aid us when finding our inner truth. It will help bring awareness from mundane levels to the heighted levels of our intuition. Uva Ursi helps with heightening our psychic abilities, connecting to our inner strength and ancestral knowledge.

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Pisces New Moon (and a whole bunch of other stuff) — Dreams and Fears

There’s a lot happening in a two-day span. Mercury goes retrograde in Pisces tomorrow, March 5. Then on Wed. March 6, We have a New Moon in Pisces and Neptune, the ruling planet of Pisces, will be conjunct with both the Moon and Sun. This might be a time of heightened emotions and daydreaming, and will also be a great time to tap into our subconscious and listen. Mercury retrograde turns our thought processes inward and Pisces and Neptune rules dreams, fears. and our intuition, giving us a chance to connect the parts of our psyche we have buried deep down.

I encourage you to set an intention before going to sleep on Tuesday and Wednesday nights (Wednesday and Thursday evenings in the Eastern hemisphere) to remember your dreams. Record everything that you can remember immediately after you wake up. Do not chance falling back asleep or getting up and moving about your day thinking that you’ll remember your dream — write them down. Or make a voice recording. Record everything you remember no matter how trivial or meaningless it seems. Also record how you remember feeling in your dream and how you felt when you woke up. Resist the urge to look what what these dreams mean using dream dictionaries online. Instead, write down what they mean to you. What do the symbols that emerged mean to you? What significance do they have in your life?

One intention you can set this New Moon is releasing fear, and the information you receive from your dreams can help you release it. What fears lurk inside your subconscious? What is the history of this fear? What parts of you are protective because of this fear? What are the intended and unintended consequences of this fear? What would your life look like if you no longer had this fear?

Uranus moves back into Taurus

Another astrological event happening on March 6 is Uranus moves back into Taurus after a brief stint in Aries due to a retrograde. This can mark a new period in our lives in the realm of finances and our relation to money. I recommend using the energy of the New Moon, Mercury retrograde, and Neptune conjunctions as a way to explore your relationship with money and stability. What money wounds do you have (e.g. “I’m bad with money,” or “I don’t deserve to have money”)? Where do they come from? What do they keep you from doing? What are ways you’ve proven that they aren’t true? Use what you learn from your explorations to be prepared for whatever happens in the next seven years while Uranus is in Taurus.

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Aquarius New Moon — It’s a datapoint, not a crisis

Tomorrow is the Aquarius New Moon and the entry in Book of Shadows introduces a way for us to explore our thought processes. This Moon has great energy for exploring why we do the things we do and think the way we think which are two practices that are easier said than done. We tend to go through life acting and reacting in ways that are instinctual without ever giving too much thought as to why we make the decisions that we do. And when presented with an opportunity to do so, many will shirk away from the task instead of diving in because it’s much easier to keep going along as we always have done and much more difficult to thoughtfully examine something that happens in a split second, not to mention the difficulty at figuring out what to do with information that wasn’t obvious before but needs to be taken into consideration now.

There are many reasons it is important to explore or thought processes. Understanding how we think and why we react the way that we do can help us better understand ourselves and how we interact with others and the world around us. It gives us the ability to see where we might be giving our power away or where we might be taking power away from other people. Most importantly, it can help us understand how we uphold and interact with the systems that we live in, and in turn, how those systems affect us.

Many people start on a path of self-discovery with the intention of self-improvement, but quickly get discouraged when they learn something about themselves that they don’t like, understand, or know how to work with. They cease their growth when they abandon their self-discovery mission and go back to the easy and familiar ways of going about life that they have adapted over the years. This discouragement comes from the tendency to judge factors that contribute to their patterns of thinking as either good or bad instead of approaching these factors objectively. For example, someone who is exploring reasons that they tend to overeat might realize that they do this when they feel stress or anxiety, or because they realize that there is piece missing from their soul that food is able to temporarily fill. They see these feelings of stress, anxiety, and emptiness and label them as “bad things to feel.” Once labeled as bad, they might feel guilty about allowing these feels to exist in the first place or lost in feeling how they might go about “fixing” the way that they feel.

What I would like to encourage is approaching these feeling as just a datapoint. When we look at a chart or a graph, we observe what pattern is made from a bunch of data presented in one place. Rarely do we look at one piece of the data and determine that it is bad, especially if there are many other supporting bits of data present. Yes, there are occasional outliers and errors found in data, but the point that I’m trying to make is that data is typically observed rather than felt and taken personally.

One way that really helps me take the emotion and personal connection out of analyzing my thought processes (or any other self-exploration, really) is creating a persona or character profile of what I’m trying to analyze. To illustrate how I’ve done this, I’ll take you through a personal example from my experience at my Muggle workplace. One time I had a conversation with my boss who told me that I needed to be more proactive at what I was attempting to accomplish instead of waiting for other people get me what I needed. This statement made me feel bad in a way I didn’t understand, so I decided to explore why. My boss’s comment felt like a criticism that was a blow to my self-worth because what I was doing was “wrong” – an emotional reaction. Why did I have this emotional reaction? Because I have a belief that being perfect is the only thing that makes me valuable as a person and that any infraction will deem me unworthy for love and acceptance. Whew! That’s hard to see, acknowledge, and share! Luckily I know that I am a valid and valuable human being who is worthy of love an acceptance, so I choose to remove my own self from this example at this point and observe as if I was observing another person.

You can create your character profile of the part of yourself which you are observing from scratch, or you can use a fictional character that you can relate you. If I felt like being original, I would name my character The Perfectionist and write about how she goes about life doing the best that she can because that’s the only way she feels like a valuable member of society. Or I could think of this character like Hermione Granger in the Chamber of Secrets when she accidentally uses a cat hair in her Polyjuice Potion and turns herself into a cat-like creature instead of the person she wanted to impersonate and hides in a bathroom stall because she is embarrassed to be seen by those closest to her in an imperfect state. But do Harry and Ron love Hermione any less because she made a mistake? They do not. Sure, they might crack a joke at her expense, but she continues to be an important part of their friendship. Thinking about the situation with my boss in this way, I can let go the feeling of shame that I feel because I can’t deem myself as perfect and I’m able to solve the challenge that I have at work without feeling like it was a personal attack, because it was not.

Cozy Carnelian Chamomile Candle from the shop.

Carnelian and Chamomile are great allies for this kind of work. Carnelian can help increase feelings of personal power, courage, and compassion. It enhances vitality and helps us focus on analytical processes by deflecting interrupting thoughts. It’s also a stone of unconditional love that will help carry us through these difficult thought exercises. Chamomile is great for stress reduction and promoting a sense of well being which is also helpful when doing these kinds of exercises.

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Jan. 5, 2019 — Capricorn New Moon, Aragonite, Cypress, and a Partial Solar Eclipse!

Whew! It’s here! The first New Moon of 2019 and it’s a partial solar eclipse if you live in parts of east Russia and Asia, and some western parts of Alaska. While most of the world won’t be able to see the eclipse, it’s energy can still be felt and used to clear away any last dregs of what you wish to release from 2018 and to supercharge your motivation when setting goals and intentions with the Capricorn New Moon!

For those of you following along with the Book of My Shadows book or PDF, you might have started a new journal to write down your responses to the prompts. I got my journal weeks ago after literally thinking about it since I started writing the book last June. I’ve thought about what it should look like. How pretty it should be. I bought a book on how to doodle so I could make it look lively and exciting. Then I got very overwhelmed (which, honestly, isn’t that hard for me to feel). I put a lot of pressure on myself to make this journal, that probably no one will ever see, ever, Instagram worthy at any moment. Which made me not want to do anything at all! I have a Capricorn rising and Libra Venus, so I have high expectations of myself and lofty ideals. But I have also started this project to share all the knowledge I’ve gained over the years about emotional regulation, exploring and embracing the shadow aspects of ourselves, and learning and gathering the courage to step into our truest selves that I had to make a conscious decision to focus on delivering something to you all instead of getting down on myself because something isn’t as good as I want it to be or when comparing it something someone else has done. I am committed to share something with you all each New and Full Moon here, and information on retrogrades if you subscribe to my emails. The things I do will never be perfect, and I am okay with that. They will be the best job I can do with the energy that I have at the time!

I love using crystals and plants to help support me while I work, play, sleep, travel, live life, etc. For this Capricorn New Moon Aragonite and Cypress stood out as allies to support us doing the necessary reflection that the prompts call for us to do.

Aragonite is a stabilizing and grounding crystal. It’s calming and centering, so great for helping to connect yourself to the Earth so you are in a safe and stable place for doing some hard work. But my favorite thing about Aragonite is its ability to help you release blockages and attachments. This is why I made an Aragonite elixir for the Capricorn New Moon. I’ll start adding a few drops of the elixir to my beverages today and throughout the weekend to make sure the last of my blockages from 2018 are released so I’m prepared for this new year ahead.

Cypress is a great woodsy scent that I especially love this time of year. It helps with grounding and focus and can help bring back your mind from the past or future to the present moment. It’s a great ally to have at the start of the year as we look at our goals and intentions for the life we want to live. It will help give us strength as we face the changes we want to make to make to learn and grow. In many cultures, Cypress is associated with the Underworld, death, and mourning which, to me, only further demonstrates its ability to help clear blockages, help with exploring our shadow parts of ourselves, and transition to the life we want to live!

I wish you the best of luck for the year ahead. Remember to rest, eat healthy food, and drink lots of water. Listen to yourself first and foremost and learn what your boundaries and what it takes to uphold them. I recommend practicing some mindfulness at least once a day, and to help you with that I’ll post a daily activity on Instagram for you to try out. I’ll also ask for 3 things that you are grateful for that day because a daily practice of gratitude has some amazing health benefits. I look forward to our journey through 2019! Cheers!